Literally everyone I’ve gotten major feelings for this past year have lead me on for a month or two just to leave with no rhyme or reason.
They’d call me beautiful everyday, call me almost every night, and make me feel happy about everything. About a week after tell me that they like me, I’ll wake up, text them, get no reply. Day later, still no reply. Two days later, no reply.
Gone. Just like that. No explanation or anything.
When shit like this repeatedly happens, it really makes me feel like not only a fool but also a worthless piece of shit. I’ve been cheated on, physically abused, and lead on countless times for no apparent reason. And I just want to know why. But no one ever gives me a logical reason. They just leave my life without a single word.
I wonder what it’s like to have someone fall for you. And I mean really fall for you. Not just they want to get in your pants because they think you’re attractive. But be consumed with every little piece of you. The way you talk, the way you laugh, the way you just exist. To everyone in love: you don’t know how lucky you are.